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399th Post

2011-11-12T00:42:00.003+08:00

Will stop blogging from now on, changed to tumblr.

www.dear-valentine.tumblr.com

The next stage of life.

2011-10-06T22:19:00.003+08:00

Been inactive these days since i've been relying on tumblr.

Tumblr is indeed a very good place to vent your frustrations or your unhappiness.

Had fun the past few days and i swear this is the first time i didn't want to come back home after travelling overseas. Damn it man, this feeling 久久不散。

It was and will always be the best getaway, the moment i'm back, i felt damn depressed, i went

"What? What's with all the tall buildings and vehicles, turn them back to the vast ocean, bumpy ferry ride, and the beautiful sand"
If the place isn't that far, i swear i will go there every weekend,

完全能够远离城市的喧嚣，让自己置身于一个无压力的海滩。

每天晚上听着吧台的驻唱清唱着流行歌曲

早上起床面对的不是一栋有一栋的建筑物，而是一望无际的大海，还有清澈的海水，在山摊上踱

步。

太完美了。

Black and white collections.

2011-09-26T15:19:00.001+08:00

Finally found it

2011-09-20T23:27:00.001+08:00

I thought i have lost my password and username for formspring, which in fact, i didn't haha.

So.

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/xbensohx

The end.

2011-09-16T23:41:00.003+08:00

Yep, that's the end, never thought it'll end so soon, but well, we've broke up happily, no 怨言 =)

Hope we'll still be friends in the future =)

Played bball with my group of buddies and it actually liften my mood a lot.

Those dudes really helped a lot.

Yep, those memories will be well kept =)

NBA All star game 2001

2011-09-14T19:19:00.002+08:00

Wah, this must be the best All star game ever.

The west overcame a 21 point deficit and won by a point in the end.

Vince carter, Allen iverson and so many more. All star game these days are no longer that exciting.

O.O

2011-09-12T21:00:00.000+08:00

Chance upon this song and the comments below =.=

第一次回應就獻給這篇=.=。聽歌真的不只是在聽技巧，有時候是在聽一個口氣。莫文蔚的唱法有她一個很明顯的咬字方式，一種加入感情的敘述方式，讓人覺得是在聽一個故事，而不只是高超的技巧乾淨的聲音加上動人旋律而已。總之，只有完美的技巧卻不會敘事的歌手很單薄吧...莫文蔚的聲音帶表情，表情帶故事。

vacuumorange 2 years ago 372

unfair.

she can sing.

she can dance.

she can act.

she've got a pair of beautiful legs.

she's hot.

she's sexy.

this is so unfair. lol

she's beautiful (:

msrabbit17 3 years ago 206

Love, under the guise of relieving suffering, imposes servitude.

2011-09-11T19:37:00.001+08:00

It feels better to be one.

2011-09-10T21:26:00.001+08:00

Times like this, I knew i ain't being a paranoid bitch.

Gone for good

2011-08-29T19:27:00.001+08:00

Shall be leaving this blog of all evil for good.
Till next time, probably no next time.

What have i done?

2011-08-29T15:51:00.000+08:00

What have i done wrongly this time round?

热脸贴冷屁股 part 2

2011-08-28T21:41:00.004+08:00

So I thought after telling you what I feel yesterday, you'll finally get it.
But nooooooooooooooooo.
So today I messaged you asking if you wanna go for bball and then you took nearly 3 hours to reply me, when your previous messages were replied almost immediately. So fine, I went to play with others.
Always pouring the cold water on my enthusiasm (sounds weird but I can't find the suitable phrase)
Always late. ALWAYS.
Since the day I met you, you were never punctual ( less than 10 times, when we've known each other for 6 years)
Fantastic isn't it?
When you say something I'll reply you in your face, but when it's my turn you turn quiet. As though I'm talking to myself. Wow.
Great. I though after I've told you that you should change this bad habit, you will. But I'm wrong.
恭禧发财 go eat shit
I think next time I'll just be late and also reply your messages late cause you were never punctual, WTF last time still say you'll change. My ass.
Even aloy also willing to change. You stubborn crap.

Fever

2011-08-28T01:45:00.002+08:00

Since when was the last time i had fever?

It's back again, the "pounding" feeling in my head, doesn't feels good.

I wonder is it because of the stress or the bball game in the cold weather =.=

So i heard sheng hao telling me this today

"Wah i feel good without having white hair, it means that i'm not stressed up"

True, looking at myself.

I could easily spot any white hair.

Time to dye it red soon. But before that, i sincerely hope the fever will subside.

It's just a bad day, not a bad life.

2011-08-27T16:22:00.004+08:00

Let's see.

Where shall I start from.

So today, 热脸贴冷屁股。

I don't wanna elaborate cause i guess it's not the first time already.

Forget it, i'll get used to it soon.

Why aren't you sensitive at all?

Puey month!

2011-08-24T21:51:00.002+08:00

Heh heh! It's our 8th already! So fast! Seems like we've only been through 4 months!( Truth is we've only been through 4 months =.=)
Yes! Didn't manage to go out to celebrate with BB cause she just had her Lasik and can't go out to dusty places!
Nevertheless! I still went over to find her!
Passed her the 枸杞子 drink, its a supplement for your eyes!
Yea though it taste more like plain water but next time will be better! :)
And she made me macaroni woooo! Damn nice I should say, never tried fried macaroni before and never thought it'll taste so good :)
Then we laze around, though we couldn't watch the tv but instead I find it better; well we could chat more :)

第八个月了！我爱你！<3

Back.

2011-08-22T23:16:00.002+08:00

Every now and then, this weird weird feeling is back.

And if anyone above is trying to bring me down, yes, it's starting to take it's toll on me.

I know why all this is happening, of course, i totally understand why.

But if this is going to happen so frequently, i'm very afraid, i might have to give up.

It's very mental, i have take on this for so long, and none of the days gave me a peace of mind.

Am i asking too much?

I just hope for a day, at least, to lie on my bed, feeling so light, so light that i'll float.

这个年头还真难熬

2011-08-16T11:38:00.002+08:00

必须压抑着心里的恶魔，不能再次让他挣脱我的束缚，控制我的一举一动。

这年头真的有太多东西占据我思绪，烦。

随着时间的流逝，许多事情就变得更加明显。

朋友之间地位的差距变得更明显。

毅力的有效期更加明显。

冲动所带来的后果更加明显。

心情的高低起伏更加明显。

无奈，更加明显。

Wooo! Back to 2009!

2011-08-06T20:25:00.008+08:00

It's beeeeeen soooooo looooooooooooooong! =)
WEEEEE UUUUU WEEEEEE!!! WHO'S THIS?!?

Haha, so BB and i went out today, what's so special was the dress code!

Sec sch uniform! :D

I was probably looking out if anyone sees me in this outfit haha!

What was i thinking back then? Why do i look like a.... retard =.=
WEEEEE! <3

This uniform is still as fitting as ever!

Nice 油条！
Woooooo! <3
Wahhhhhhhhhhh <3

Been so long since i've touched that uniform, but what really matters is who you're wearing that uniform with =)

Though people kept staring but well, who cares? We're not gonna bring them home anyway! (Quoted from the lovely BB)

It'll definitely be part of my memories, those that i would never want to forget <3

解脱

2011-08-03T16:08:00.002+08:00

So damn glad that most of my presentations and assignments are cleared.

So now i'm left with :

1. Lengleng's test

2. ShiuanShiuan's assignment

3. Liyi's podcast

4. karchun's exam

FINALLY!

So i finally went for my gym session after missing out for a week. Cause last week was really too busy.

And i finally shirk away all the tummy fats i've got, someone told me my tummy was protruding like dog =.=

And i managed to do 110 slanted sit ups at a goal within 2mins, great accomplishment for me i think.

Let's take a rest today before doing anything.

My last chance.

2011-07-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

Absence does not make the heart grow fonder.

I wish hectic is as simple as what it's defined as. <--- This doesn't even make sense

2011-07-27T19:29:00.004+08:00

So for next week:
1. KC's assignment
2. Angel's presentation
3. Liyi's radio presentation

The following week:

1. Shiuan Shiuan's assignment
2. Lengleng's test

Then the 18th week will be Liyi's podcast

23rd will be KC's exam.

I don't really get it why all of the assignments and presentations are lined up at the end of the semester.

I believe next semester will be more of a disaster.

This guy's birthday is on 20th July
Whereas this guy's birthday on 9th July (Wah why so buff)

Notice what's the similarities?

THEY ARE ALL CANCERIANS JUST LIKE I DO HOHOHOHOHO!
Just saying =.=

Unwanted piece of thrash.

2011-07-24T23:34:00.002+08:00

Tumblr could be of so much help. Sometimes =.=

=.=

2011-07-24T11:52:00.004+08:00

Assignments, assignments and assignments. When can i finally get rid of all of them? =.=

Phew, lucky it wasn't seen.

But at the same time it'll mean that it will remain the same, no changes =.=.=.=.=.=

But at least it feels better now =.=

Wah i'm speechless.

2011-07-24T11:44:00.001+08:00

Seriously.

Ouch.

2011-07-20T17:50:00.002+08:00

That seriously hurt.

Bullshit.

2011-07-19T16:08:00.003+08:00

I just realise i have to say this.

July is full of bullshit. I don't know is it me or is it every July feels like hurricane just went pass.

Once August reaches, everything seem to calm down.

Every year, July never fails to bullshit me. =.=

Wonder when the NBA lockout will end =/

要我怎么办？

2011-07-17T20:34:00.002+08:00

教我该怎么办。

Tried my best la.

Feels like an idiot.

Good game.

2011-07-16T21:00:00.003+08:00

Had bball again just now.

I seriously prefer playing with matured players, not those chao ah beng that laugh and joke around in between matches and we have to stop and look at them laughing away.

C'mon man, this is not your match, its OURS. =.=

China, Malaysia and Philippine players are much more better, in terms of sportsmanship and teamwork. No wonder Singapore can never win any countries in Basketball. =.=

Nose bleed badly just now while playing, got knocked damn hard by this big guy and it's still bleeding now. I can ever feel my hands shivering, think my blood is oozing too much.

Still gotta stay overnight at Aloy's house, hope the bleeding will stop, now.

And there's probably some nerves torn on my upper thigh. Jumped too much already =.= Gotta limp now.

But it's still a good game anyway, though the bleeding part is a whole lot of bullshit. =.=

Pride?

2011-07-16T00:34:00.002+08:00

Amazingly fabulous.

面对你可以折叠的爱情 该要有什麼样子的表情 为什麼不能问 不能更透明 想要保护自尊的爱 藏著孤寂。。。

Expected

2011-07-15T09:25:00.000+08:00

Belated 18th!

2011-07-14T19:34:00.005+08:00

Well i hope the unlucky days will come to an end already.

Got all this from BB for my belated 18th! =)

A loooooooooooot of sushi but still managed to finish it but i can't have my dinner now haha.

Very nice =)

Had sushi for dinner again, i don't know why it all taste so weird suddenly =.=

Those above still taste better =)

Everything isn't going right.

2011-07-13T23:21:00.002+08:00

This is a terrible week.

Which makes it seem so long. It's only Wednesday.

I wouldn't want to list out how bad this week is cause i'm too tired for all this.

I don't wanna get involved with all this politics going on

I don't wanna get involved when friends are arguing and i'm all sandwiched

I don't wanna get involved with all these repetition of initiating

I don't wanna get involved with all this hectic school work

I don't wanna get involved with anything.

ANYTHING.

I don't think you see it as a problem, cause you'll probably not, no one will ever think it's a problem.

Perhaps, i see it too seriously. Well i get tensed up very often sometimes and i know it.

But if you were to be in my shoes for perhaps just an hour, you'll probably get insane.

Well this paragraph did not even summarise any problem i faced this week.

So if i ever said i'm suffering from OCD and it's not getting any better, will anyone bother?

Hah you think i'm to young to actually understand anything?

Perhaps if you ever had OCD, you'll understand you're absolutely wrong.

Whatever man, i dreaded this day, that's why i did not expect

Anything.

It'll not get any better, but i'm just gonna get use to it.

My 18th!

2011-07-10T01:04:00.011+08:00

Woohoo! I'm finally 18! Like after so long??

18 is finally a stable age for a lot of stuff, i don't know what i even mean by saying this =.=

So the day before my 18th, my mum cooked my favourite Black pepper chicken.

Wah !@#@$@#$@$!@ shiok ! After so long! Love it!

Then on my Birthday itself, Aloy, Sheng hao and Ivan came over to look for me in school, then we went over to town, have our dinner and watched a romance movie =.=

Yes romance, we came to realise the whole cinema are filled with couples after the movie, we were the only guys group =.=

And today i went out with Dingxiang, bixuan and yihui.

So i was made to blind fold myself and wait for command..First challenge was to drink milk tea then i made it haha!
Second was to take photos with 18 groups of people! The lady in black was having birthday on the 9th! =)
Haha another group photo with Ang moh and one of them was having birthday on the 9th toohaha!
So they were supposed to ambushed someone and i ruined their plan, but nevertheless, they still take this photo with me haha! =)
Wooo Ang Moh man! Damn high ar those girls! Wished me happy birthday too! =)
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! :D
Haha i was then suppose to go to 313 to take photos with the 18th shop on every level. =)

So we went over to 疯狂世界 in Chinatown to eat. Awww the place is very very nice and cosy. Very retro too. =)
So they told me to write something for my parents, and i did! Haha i'm wondering when will be the best moment to pass it to them.

Yes this cake is very cute haha, they intended to put Caoge and Cindy's photo on the cake but it wasn't possible haha. But it's the thought that counts. I appreciate it very much. :D
Yes, this is our group photo today.
I guess these guys are the friends i will have throughout my life.

They gave me the most memorable birthday celebration today, especially holding the "It's my birthday" board, everyone was wishing me Happy birthday when they see me carrying the board, feels very very good. Like the whole world knows you.

These friends are really awesome :D

Nostalgia

2011-07-07T22:36:00.003+08:00

I found this photo on tumblr and the caption says: This is why you need to sleep with a Teddy Bear.

I don't know why it looked extra heart warming when i first saw this.

I guess it's how it used to be that made everything seem so screwed up right now, at this very moment. I vividly remembered how it used to be a year before and it wasn't like this. I don't know who's responsible for all these but i believe it's not their fault. We are who we think we are, if we continue to behave this way, i definitely believe it will diminish, so stop behaving as if the whole world owes anyone anything because it certainly didn't. Grow up, we're all at least 17 already. Stop acting like you're 1 or 7 years old.

Love fails, only when we fail to love.

2011-07-05T20:23:00.003+08:00

Damn it man, getting less energetic while playing bball these days.
And damn the NBA lockout, wonder when will i be able to see them play on the courts again =.=

Argghhh assignments =.=

保佑保佑！

2011-07-03T19:55:00.002+08:00

A test and a presentation tomorrow.

I know it's nothing to rant about, but seriously, you wouldn't know a shit if you weren't in my shoes.

This lady, i hope she has done her job by understanding her ppt, hope nothing crops up tomorrow during my presentation. PLEASE! It's my first time leading a presentation group, don't let me down!

And for Shiuanshiuan's test, i don't know what else to study already, so please bless me 观音娘娘 if you are looking over me.

Day out swimmming

2011-07-01T23:55:00.002+08:00

Yes i know there's a test coming up this monday

Yes i know there's presentation coming up this monday

And yes, i know there's an assignment to hand up this thursday.

But seriously, i can't get anything in my mind at all.

But i've completed most of the above so i peacefully went to Jurong and swim =.=

With Ivan of course, not alone =.=

We found a float floating around the pool and we actually used it to add on to our entertainment hahaha.

Then an angmoh came to claim it from us, luckily it was an angmoh, if it's any singaporeans, i'm pretty sure they'll rant at us =.=

Alright, shall continue revising tomorrow =.=

Sixième mois!

2011-06-24T23:18:00.006+08:00

Yay!

Went over to collect the 6th month gift and it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!!
BEST GIFT EVER! :D
Thank you BB! Love you ttm!!! <3

2 more weeks before you'll be back!!! =)

Just can't stop smiling to myself at the clip!

Must be the sweetest thing i've heard this year =)

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee <3

Last one

2011-06-22T01:03:00.001+08:00

Woooooow! It's the last monthsary present soon! Time's passing, rather fast? Haha!

Just wanna rant

2011-06-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

Okay, i think i did not procrastinate, but i don't know why the work load's getting out of hand.

-Audacity

-Wiki page

-Angel's assignment

_Modern lit ppt

_Shiuan2 test

Just 2 weeks, 2 more weeks, i have to complete all this.

This semester's not getting any better. NOT.

Surprise celebration for Bixuan!

2011-06-18T01:18:00.003+08:00

So today was suppose to do project haha!

Just an excuse to lure Bixuan to Yihui's house for the surprise presentation.

Went over to cine for Kungfu Panda 2, not bad actually =)
This stupid unglam forever =.=
7 tickets! =.=
Then this one act cute here =.=
Okay okay a photo with 寿星！
Ahhh the cupcakes we made at Yihui's house, not bad i think hahaha! Just that mine look kinda out of shape HAHA!
Group photos!
寿星ar!
Another shot with 寿星！
Looks weird =.=

Warm up

2011-06-16T23:41:00.003+08:00

The importance of Warm up:

1. Wouldn't get tension in the thigh muscles

2. Ankle wouldn't hurt

3. Biceps and triceps wouldn't hurt too

Never thought i would suffer so much from today's bball match due to warm up.

Moreover it's a full court match zzz!

I seriously don't like strategy type of bball match, a lot of restrictions.

Met up with Michael and Wenkang for a bball match together with sheng hao.

It's been really long since i last seen the 2 of them, still ask guai lan as ever la. =.=

Canon EF50mm f/2.5 Compact Macro

2011-06-14T23:42:00.003+08:00

ARGH!
I've not taken photos for a long time!

I need a new lens now =.=

Always seeing nice photos on tumblr then have the urge to take them, but i'm just lack of the new macro lens for the effects =.=

If i really cant get it maybe i'll just stick to my current lens.

Argh, i wouldn't mind a second hand lens. Gonna save up now =.=

Pathetic duo.

2011-06-11T12:54:00.001+08:00

Yea, should have mocked at your pathetic 8 points field goal in Game 4.

Redundant thoughts.

2011-06-11T12:42:00.000+08:00

Yea, you proved that it's all redundant =)

Wow

2011-06-08T14:34:00.002+08:00

I'm kinda surprised my hard work didn't pay off today.

The paper seemed easy but the fact is section 2 actually came up with questions teacher talked lesser on.

Nah, not to blame anyone here, perhaps it's just luck.

Hope i won't fare too badly =/

AND
When is my Ray allen's jersey coming?!

I've been waiting for quite long already! =.=

Hmm.

2011-06-06T23:03:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

不一样。

ZZZ!

2011-06-05T23:18:00.001+08:00

I'm like getting so picky nowadays =.=

不够

2011-06-05T22:45:00.002+08:00

I think, i'm not receiving enough of what i yearn for.
Not greedy.

Just..

Not enough.

Flashback

2011-06-04T23:29:00.003+08:00

I have to say i hate those who try to act like big shots in front of me when they can play bball better than i do.

I don't fucking care who you are, you try giving me more attitude, i'll show you what i can do.

Don't fucking give in to me when you're playing with me, basic respect dude. _l_

Whatever.

I'm having flashbacks, of what i've done.

Or rather what i shouldn't have done.

It's been so long, but why am i still bothered by it?

Maybe it's true when we say it's a matter of a lifetime.

Well it really is, cause it's haunting me every now and then.

And by definition, i'm not going to have peace any time sooner.

Shaq retired!

2011-06-02T21:13:00.002+08:00

Shaquille O'neal retired.

Guess he's one of the greatest Centre in NBA history.

And wow!

These few days i'm so itching to play bball.

Managed to play awhile yesterday but damn it, it rained.

And partially cause i have to do project but it wasn't productive at all. I don't wanna pin point who's at fault yea.

So today i managed to play with Sheng Hao.

Damn good that we managed to win over Riverside Sec's( My previous Secondary school) Basketball team.

I didn't know they were from school's bball team till the end of the match.

The great thing was we managed to make a comeback when we were trailing behind 11-0 =.=
Thought they were giving in to us till they wanted another match after it ended.

My 3 pointer was so.. Luck.

But well, what is success without a bit of luck??

Fantastic shit!

Here it comes again.

2011-06-01T21:11:00.003+08:00

2 tests coming up next week, together with one more assignment.

Then 2 projects and 1 more assignment due before my birthday.

Tough days ahead, but i believe only tough people exist.

God damn it, that's true!

2011-05-31T20:05:00.001+08:00

Tumblr!

2011-05-29T14:54:00.000+08:00

Just trying out for fun! =)

http://dear-valentine.tumblr.com/

NBA entertainment at its best!

2011-05-29T12:03:00.001+08:00

The second last dunk was the best i thought. Haha.

You're the one who should reflect

2011-05-28T15:00:00.000+08:00

＂丢中文系的脸＂
Yea I know my Chinese standard ain't the best, but the least I could do was to keep striving hard.
I don't think I'm that useless for you to say that to me.
Moreover, who are you to say that to me?
You're in no position to criticise me cause you yourself is not doing yourself proud at all.
So keep those comments to yourself
Keep those actions to yourself.
Try harder to bring me down. I won't give up.
You should accomplish something in life rather than leading a life of a Casanova.
Yuck.
凸凸

On the brighter side of the note, i've finally reached 60kg! Woooow!
It's a rarity to see a 6 as the first digit on the weighing scale for me!
Though this week's been a sporty week for me but I've still managed to reach 60kg!
Yea man!

Fast week.

2011-05-26T21:21:00.003+08:00

This weeks' exceptionally fast and tiring.

You'll know it if you're facing awkwardness everyday, and the insult :/

And the tests and projects are all coming in at once, i wonder when will all this settle down =.=

On the other note, the Dallas won and they might probably face the Miami during the finals.

Hope the Dallas will win.

Screw off la Miami =.=

What the hell.

2011-05-25T13:27:00.002+08:00

Wah, i got fined again =.=

In just a month or so i got fined 2 times =.=

Gonna start using adult ez link from now on =.=

When i paid my fine just now, the lady even thank me =.=

Why did she even bother to thank me for crap.

I hate it

2011-05-24T21:31:00.003+08:00

Damn, i hate the way it is now.

Everything's so fake.

I can't bring myself to doing all this everyday

Hope it'll get better.

Sincerely hope so.

Theeeeeeeeeeeeeee 5th!

2011-05-24T21:26:00.003+08:00

HAHA! It's the 5th already! Still as slow as it can be!

This month's gift to me, i think its very sincere!

Well basically all the past gift are very sincere!

Cause all are DIY gift!

DIY gift are much better than those bought one i believe so! Haha!

So the above is the date we're together, sewed onto this towel.

Damn, i doubt i'll bear to use it haha! =)

Happy 5th month! <3

Weakling

2011-05-22T20:04:00.002+08:00

Wow, my knee hurts like durian now.

Was playing matches with one Filipino.

I wonder what he feeds on, so freaking accurate in shooting, so strong that my finger and knee hurts like durian =.=

Getting lethargic very easily nowadays when playing matches, or maybe it's because it's 1v1. But i still gotta train up on stamina. =.=

WOO!

2011-05-22T02:02:00.005+08:00

WOOOO! SKYPED! AFTER SO LONG HAHA!
Haven't heard her voice for so long.

HAHA! Till next time! =)

Miss you! =)

Reunion

2011-05-20T21:27:00.003+08:00

Was watching MVP 情人 these days.

Managed to chance upon this song.

Though i've heard it like years ago (yes, years ago, the show's in 2002), but i'm still not sick of it =)

It feels great to hear that your friend have so much to catch up with you when you guys haven't seen each other for months.

This lil' brat

2011-05-18T19:11:00.005+08:00

I don't know how he managed to on my comp and activate the webcam =.=

But since he activated it, oh well =/

Take it together then =)

Bathed this lil' brat just now haha

First time bathing a toddler, not bad afterall.

Press one time of soap then can wash the whole body, for me i still need to press 3 times zzz =.=

The gugu bird very small =.=

The first one.

2011-05-17T01:09:00.003+08:00

The first cat that is willing to accept my HL Milk haha.

So Ivan and i just walked around the neighbourhood, then this cat popped out of nowhere and started following us.

We thought we're really that attractive to attract this cat.

But who knows the next moment, she found a hole and started shitting =.=

Then she continued following us.
So i felt so sad for this cat. Looks like she's starving, so i went to get HL milk. Then i thought it might not be enough, then i went to get a loaf of bread =.=

Totally wasted the bread, she didn't eat at all =.=

Then i walked all the way back then realise her territory is actually near the RC beside my block.

But i think i'm starting to like this cat, as though she has human senses. =/

Gonna trim my hair tomorrow, hope it will not fail

Bad temper

2011-05-15T22:44:00.003+08:00

Very bad temper these few days.
Whoever talks to me might just get it from me instantly.

I don't know why i'm so freaking pissed off these days.

So many things to do and i'm not willing to clear them all,

I'm much obliged by the workload given to us.. NOT.

Why do i have to watch an old movie again?

Why do i have to do research on Mediacorp this time round?

Why can't i find the things i'm looking for on the net?

Why why why?

Maybe that's why i'm so pissed off.

Haiz. Menses coming or what?

1st time

2011-05-15T00:38:00.002+08:00

Woah, i actually went out without bringing my phone along with me today. Kinda great accomplishment for me.

Hasn't tried that since Primary 6.

E-learnings' next week and it means a week of workout and bball after all my work are done.

Hope the weather gets better.

Lost x2

2011-05-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

Celtics lost.

I lost in all 4 games too.

Got thrashed badly, for Celtics and me.

I wonder what's wrong with the handling today zzz.

Time to go back to those days when i play bball everyday.

Damn this feeling.

Fuck today.

Aye, whatever, i'm at a loss for words.

2011-05-11T23:19:00.000+08:00

Whatever it is, i hope Celtics can win the game tonight.

Not hoping to see you guys go for the vacation so quickly.

Perhaps it's your last year to clinch the championship title. =/

火

2011-05-11T22:33:00.000+08:00

很火。

This had gone too far.

2011-05-10T22:22:00.010+08:00

Maybe I should just start feeling for my friends and family, only them.
Only.
They are perhaps, the only ones who are worthy of it.

Why did i even bother?
Why should i?
Why am i bothered by it?

Why?
Devastating.
So devastating.

Who should be leading Singapore?

2011-05-08T01:27:00.002+08:00

Well, i have to speak up for PAP now.

Seriously, what have PAP done for us?

What we have now,

the peaceful environment, our housing estates, our education and all that we have now.

Who do we credit?

PAP.

What have they done so badly they we need to get them out of the parliament?

Just because of the escape of Mas Selamat?

No? It isn't fully their fault, so why should we point our fingers at them?

Shouldn't we thank them for all that we have now?

If it weren't for them, do you think you can sleep peacefully, without worrying what may happen the next second? Do you?

People say we should give a chance to the opposition party.

Well i agree, that's why we don't leave them out during elections, we still give them a chance to handle an area. This year, Hougang, the most anticipated area.

So if 5 years later we don't see any improvements, we'll know who to vote for.

Think.

Some say" we should give them a chance to lead the parliament!"

Even if they are able to lead the country well, don't you think it's partially PAP's effort?

Without all the foundation laid in the past, do you think you can really lead the country well?

Where do you think you can start from?

Think.

Nicole seah.

So you think all that you have,

the education levels,

the environment you're living at,

your clothes,

your money,

your everything,

ain't a result of PAP's effort?

You're criticising PAP, you're insulting them, insulting Lee Kuan Yew,

饮水思源。

Do you know what that means?

No you don't, you can't even speak proper mandarin when you face the media!

You think you should credit all that you have to yourself or the opposition parties?

Think.

Look at Lee Hsien Loong, he made an effort to master at least 3 languages out of the main 4 in Singapore. What have the opposition done to promote racial harmony?

By speaking improper mandarin during rallies?

Think.

Obviously, the cost of living the ERP and everything that has to do with money is increasing.

Which country has all of them decreasing or even any of them?

How did we get through the economy crisis?

How?

7% GST. Was what they promised for at least 5 years from now, they will not increase.

So what more do you want, Singaporeans?

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

2011-05-04T21:58:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i think i'm kinda similar to Mr ray =.=

Okay maybe 我高攀不起

But come to think of it

maybe i'm suffering from the same thing as him

80% confirmed.

Gonna try cutting down on those thinking and reduce my own anxiety..

Screw it.

2011-05-03T20:55:00.002+08:00

Damn it, where's the parcel i've sent to China?!?!

It's nowhere near China i think =.=

Screw whoever lost it or even steal it! _l_

This time round it better be sent over

And stupid me for throwing the receipt away, thinking it'll be sent successfully, naive me =.=

Here's a tribute to Mr Ray.

2011-05-02T22:03:00.006+08:00

Hope you guys will rock the court on wed!

Of course,

Winning the semis

then the finals.

Towards your 18th championship!

I doubt Ray Allen will be continuing his basketball career after this season.

Damn demoralising =/

为什么？

为什么过了将近一年了，当我得知你的近况，

我却感到酸溜溜的？

Too much time wasted.

2011-05-02T12:47:00.001+08:00

I think it's time for me to wake up early.

I'm always waking at 1+ or 2+pm when there's no class the next day

I guess it's not a good habit to actually stay up so late and wake up so late

And honestly, i feel that a lot of time is wasted, through my sleep.

Gotta start treasuring time.

Those memories in Marsiling. I miss them.

2011-05-02T00:32:00.004+08:00

Tonight i spend few hours walking to Marsiling Crescent, the place my grandparents are currently staying then went over to Woodlands Waterfront then to Old Woodlands Centre.

今天真的让我勾起许多美好的童年回忆。

那些我在公公家的回忆

那些我在老爸前一份工作场地的回忆

那些小学的回忆

好多好多地方让我想起好多好多人，好多好多经历，

好多好多遗憾。

人面不知何处去，桃花依旧笑春风。

物是人非

2011-05-01T14:54:00.000+08:00

人面不知何处去， 桃花依旧笑春风。

Okay okay okay BB i'm not down now but fed up, no worries!

2011-05-01T02:47:00.004+08:00

很突兀地，这种悲伤转换成气愤

也许受到了IVAN的影响，

自己也变得很暴躁。

原因不是因为自己做得不够好，

而是不了解为什么会有人这样对待你，尽管你已经做得尽善尽美。

我也从没如此对待过他人，那我想也不会是因果循环导致我今天如此狼狈。

我在想，

也许这样的对待是因为我们的关系太亲密了（不是暧昧）

或则还有其他的原因，我不晓得。

“我极度讨厌对我忽冷忽热的人，尽管你是否在对我开玩笑，我还是很不喜欢。这表示了我在你眼里是个呼之则来，挥之则去，一点也不重要的过客。”

对，我当下的心情就能以以上的一句话来概括。

我的容忍，我的耐心，我的脾气

随着你自私，不屑的态度，渐渐地减退。

我也很想知道哪天，我会突然爆发，当众指责你，然后就不再是好朋友，保持着一段尴尬的距离。

当然，我也很不希望那天会到来。

但每个人的忍耐都是有限度的，不是随着你的任性，随意糟蹋，随意践踏。

这次我终于下定决心了，

我不会再懦弱地退让，默默无语，让你把我当成小丑随意牵动我的情绪。

我，会让你尝一尝忽冷忽热的滋味。但我绝对不会像你一样，做得那么过分。我是有分寸的。

HO SEH!

2011-05-01T00:41:00.003+08:00

WOOOHOOO!

Finally gotten myself a proper pair of bball shoe cum track shoe!

Gotta thrash others with this pair of baby next time i enter the court.

Talking about trashing others, i've been thrashed badly today and last week, together with aloy and shenghao =.=

Yep, so i went walking and crapping with shenghao today while walking to get his wallet.

Thought i wouldn't be needing one, but my feet hurts all the time when i finish a match. =/

Will be playing with my juniors this wednesday, hope this pair of baby won't let me down! =)

"Goliath VS Goliath" was the title for the match for Celtics and Heat.
I seriously hope the match would end with a happy ending; Celtics would sweep with 4-0 and no the other way round.

Let the game begin.

Woo wow and not forgetting this not-bad-looking girl i saw on the train, kept staring at us when we're on the way back, then she actually smiled at me when she alighted. Hmmm..

感慨

2011-04-29T19:17:00.002+08:00

剩下不到三个月就十八岁的我，

突然有股莫名的无奈，悲伤，绝望，悲观，失落。

这些情绪来的太突兀，让我不知该如何释怀。

也许人生就是这样，在你最寂寞的时候，负面情绪就会唐突地侵袭你那短暂的快乐。

快乐打了退堂鼓，让悲伤占据你的心灵。

也许到了这个人生阶段，我才突然领悟到，人生并非一帆风顺。

再加上今年犯太岁（虽然我不是很迷信），可能还会有小劫。

其实让我最懊恼的还是人际关系。

从中学攀上了理工学院后，我才发现朋友之间的友情不再是那么坚定，那么真挚。

中学的我还以为人生最大的悲剧就是遇上了一个不仁不义的朋友，

来到了这，我才发现原来我错了。

结交了一些好友，才发现自己该调整观看人，事，物的角度。

一向认为已经精通了如何处理人际关系的我（太无知了），现在才发现之前学会的都根本不能打好基础。

到了人生的不同阶段，面对的人也会然你目瞪口呆，不知所措。

当你面对这种情况是，唯一能做的就是微笑。

别小看微笑的力量，它能够抵挡外界所给予你的压力，替你在尴尬的情况下解围，还能让你逃离前所未有，不知所措的局势。

最可悲的还是家。

还以为回到了自己的容身之处就能得到慰藉。

我真是一错再错，到底要错到何时？

家里的舅母真是让人大跌眼镜。

婚前婚后的她根本就判若两人，本来还期望她能是唯一一个不那么自私，那么guailan的媳妇儿。

但是我外婆又失望了。

这次还更糟，竟然把母亲的责任推给了我母亲。

让我母亲每天为他的儿子忙得焦头烂额，夜以继日。

还以为她下班后就会立刻扛起母亲的担子，结果她却忙起自己的东西，完完全全的把自己置身于外，仍然把孩子退给我妈或她老公，也就是我舅舅照顾。

到了如此不负责任的地步我也无可奈何。

每晚躺在床上

都想找回当初那种 “一身轻”的感觉了。

我也不知道该到什么时候，才能寻回当初的感觉。好怀念。

Hope it'll be fine.

2011-04-29T01:58:00.001+08:00

Hope after all this,

all the misunderstandings and the barriers would be

D-E-M-O-L-I-S-H-E-D

真诚

2011-04-26T16:42:00.002+08:00

倘若我们第一次见面时你就是真心的，也许现在我也不会觉得你很虚伪，

我希望你有什么不满就当着那个人的面说，

希望你们不要再把局面搞得那么僵。

我一直都很真心地对待朋友，

希望你也会真心地对待我们。

MY RAY POSTER HAS ARRIVED!

2011-04-25T18:37:00.001+08:00

WAHHHH WAITED FOR AROUND 2 WEEKS! HUAT AR! LONG LIVE ALLEN!

4th present!

2011-04-25T18:33:00.002+08:00

WEEEE! Can't wait for you to be back! =)

4th!

2011-04-24T20:27:00.003+08:00

YAY! It's our 4th today!

Love you bb!

Wonder if the post man would lose the parcel or thrown the parcel away =.=

Will be seeing what you gonna give me tomorrow!

Good day! =)

I need to be taller.

2011-04-23T00:19:00.002+08:00

Haiz wth, got blocked so many times just now,

someone who's just a few cm taller than me could easily block my shots =.=

Gotta train on outside shootings already since i'm too short to actually layup my shots

But how could Derrick Rose do it so easily, without getting blocked?

Damn it =.=

I think i'm getting more and more..

2011-04-22T10:40:00.002+08:00

I think i'm getting more and more 洁癖..

I think i'm getting more and more paranoid..

I think i'm getting more and more irritable..

I think i'm getting more and more hungry.. =.=

I think i'm getting more and more emotional..

I think i'm getting more and more quiet..

I think i'm getting more and more sensitive..

I think i'm getting more and more demanding..

Why?

Even when i'm sleeping, my dreams won't let me off.

When can i find the solace i've always been looking for?

SELENE OIEEEEEEEEEEE!

2011-04-22T00:48:00.002+08:00

SELENE OIIEEEEEEE AR!
HAHAHA! Still didn't manage to get them to say "BEN ROCKS" at the end of the cheer =.=

BUT NEVERTHELESS, WE STILL HAD FUN WEEEEEEEE!

Wah i was damn lucky to see them outside the atrium when i was about to go! Didn't manage to say my last words before dismissal =( Greatest regret this month.
AND SO THIS IS DAY2! AT THE BOTANIC GARDENS! I remembered waiting for the other groups to come for like 20mins or so at least! Meanwhile, we started playing games and cheer and did forfeits. HAHAHA I REMEMBERED ONE THAT WAS DAMN FUNNY!

Some one went to ask for a guy's number, then when that guy's gonna give, the girl went "Ah don't want la!" Then walk off! HAHA! That guy totally sian diao HAHAHA!
Ah, the jumpshot, fail haha.
Wah the last day, day games, the Helios GLs! All waiting to be rescued!
Ah and this one is with phyllis!

And damn it, i feel so stupid without telling my freshies that i've wrote my email behind the note i gave them, i bet none noticed except for those that i've told. No wonder no one has added me yet TT_TT

BUT I'LL DIG ALL OF YOU OUT SOON!
HOPE WE'LL HAVE A SELENE GATHERING SOON!

Now i believe everything happens for a reason

2011-04-20T18:10:00.002+08:00

I know it'll be damn corny to say this BUT I DON'T CARE!

I AM MISSING MY FRESHIES MAN! The above is a collation of their blessings for me!

Then they folded it into a heart shape and gave it to me!

I was damn touched by it man!

During the prep camp, i was so reluctant to go and i even wanted to go back home cause it was so boring!

But then when the FOW starts, i began to feel the adrenaline rush!

All the 12 freshies i was taking care of, together with Michelle, were rather quiet on the first day

But GLs obviously have to cheer them up, make them break off the barriers between them!

AND WE DID IT!

The 2nd day, while we were at botanic gardens, all of them became enthusiastic all of a sudden! =)

We even managed to played games and cheers and crack all sorts of jokes hahaha!

Being the most quiet during the prep camp, i don't know why i deserve such a wonderful bunch of freshies with me, i'm a happy man already.

Thank you whoever made this happen.

During prep camp, i thought "if everything happens for a reason, i wanna know what the reason is for me to join this camp"

And so the reason came to me abruptly today, when i was giving them my notes of blessing!

THANK YOU SELENE!!! THANK YOU MICHELLE! THANK YOU LYANA, PHIL, MEI LIN, AMANDA NG, SHI LEE, CHERIE, CASSANDRA, SHERYL, REBECCA, SHAKIRA, AMANDA W. and ZI XIN! MOST IMPORTANTLY MY PARTNER MICHELLE!!! THANK YOU GUYS!

I'm so freaking touched by you guys, hope you guys don't feel irritated by me keep nagging and acting like a lunatic throughout the FOW! HOPE YOU GUYS HAVE ENJOYED!!! =)

Hope i'll be able to upload more photos during the FOW!

Now i'm thinking of going for the 30 hours famine camp..

＂你以为女人的妒嫉糟？男人的妒嫉更可怕＂

2011-04-18T18:35:00.002+08:00

First day of fow!
I should say my throat's getting worse haha!
But it was fun I should say, just that freshies gotta be more enthusiastic haha!
And wow I actually met one woodlanders in my tribe!
If he hadn't tell me he finds me familiar, I wouldn't have notice him too.
Cool day, hope tomorrow will be better, botanic garden!
Kkk gotta rush to custom now. =.=

There's a problem

2011-04-17T12:35:00.016+08:00

你还会需要我吗？

Then this song came so close to my heart.

贴切到让人听了好心痛。

这样的爱，好可怕。

Nil

2011-04-16T23:03:00.001+08:00

Don't think much la hor, let nature take it's course.

有妹妹那该多好

2011-04-16T20:57:00.002+08:00

So i was taking bus home just now

Then there was this girl sitting beside me, around 5-6 years old

Then she took out her diary and started flipping through,

Then i saw something like "Today I am still very sad" and "Today i am happy"

HAHA!
Okay, that's not the point,

the point is she started to doze off after she kept her diary,

while she was dozing off, she kept tilting her head left and right, going with the driver's flow,

so eventually she gave up and lie on my arms.

That moment, i felt so.. blissful

How i hope i have a sister, that can lie on my arms when she's tired..

Then her mum woke her up when we've reached the interchange.

If i have a sister.. How nice would it be.

Freaking full.

2011-04-15T21:20:00.007+08:00

Wah, went to have seoul garden after like so long.

But it's ivan treating so it doesn't really hurt me for paying so much la haha

Damn freaking full man.

Then companied him to SP to finish his course transfer

Then to NYP to settle his stuff again

Headed to Northpoint and had one freaking full meal again =.=

I'm still bloated now damn it....

Anything that can happen, will happen.

I hope it won't.

FBC

2011-04-14T20:59:00.004+08:00

Yep some pics here from FBC. O.O

Siao eh Asnira from my sec sch, didn't expect her to be in the same tribe with me though. This game not challenging btw =.=

Outing to Botanic garden. Wah damn hot i can say.

Yea, trying damn hard to braid, but apparently i'm not cut out to be a tailor =/

I think i look kinda dumb here =.=

Kkkk

2011-04-14T16:34:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA! Kkkkkkkkk you forced me into this, don't blame me if i ever go too far.
Nah beh
气到 " chat chat tiao " fuyoooooh

Camp after 2 years.

2011-04-13T14:58:00.002+08:00

So i just went for the FOC Bonding camp, after 2 years.

Which means i haven't went for any camps after 2 years.

Seriously, i was damn bored on the first day and the botanic trip cause there was no one i could talk to except for Meiqi. But later on, i get to know more of them then it wasn't that bad already.

Damn tired now, the blanket in loft is damn thin.

Wonder what it'll be like for next week O.O

300th

2011-04-09T18:46:00.000+08:00

You know, all these wasn't a problem to me when i was young.