Me

This week was rather a depressing one.
I dont know why.... maybe this is called mood swing.
Yea.... but it 变本加厉 compared to last week.
Just couldnt concentrate in class. Actually i can. Because i can do the homework and test the teacher gave. LOL.

Sometimes when i really concentrate in class, the results will be like shit.
But when i am troubled or not paying attention, i will excel in my work.
Thats my weird genes. I bet it came from the recessive alleles (just some Bio terms). Because my parents doesnt seem to have such kind of weird genes.
And yea, the 直通车 was totally true. Wonder how they always got it right.
And i noticed something, or i should say Ben Tan told me this.
The weather nowadays is damn weird. Its either scorching heat or rain pouring down.
Yea if you ever noticed.

But today i went to watch X-men with her =)
The movie is very nice. Its a combination of action pack and romance. Nice movie. But i am not going to spoil the fun and say everything out. Go catch the movie yourself. Its really worth $6.50.
Oh ya dont forget to get yourself a packet of popcorn before going in.... if not you will have nothing to bite on when the tension increases.

Yep, after that we slacked around in Northpoint and then the library there. 有时候勇气不仅仅只是勇气。是毅力与决心的存在，才能拼得出这两的字。

And again.... Tomorrow is a public holiday. Perhaps i will finish the whole episode of "True Singapore Ghost Stories ".... if not i will be really bored.
每个朝阳都那么地温暖
每晚的月光都那么柔软
只要你能愉快

Havent been able to post properly this few days.
Because i was too busy and am too lazy to on my computer =.=
Because i got alot of homework and things to do.
Saturday was quite fun as i was out the wholeeeee day.... yea in the library.
Before that i went for speech day because i was on public duty.... yea i dont see why would anyone get injured while receiving or presenting prize.
And i dont see why when we are in the backstage, we have to wear full-u.
And as usual, theres no injuries.

Then i went to the library to study till 6pm++ then have to go for tuition....=.=
超舍不得
But i actually got the courage to do it! WOOO!
Haha okay then i did some homework for a while then read some story books =)
Yep.... was accompanied throughout. So happy haha!
希望下次还有机会

Then i went home after the tuition and slacked for awhile before watching 阴阳路17 in the night at 1am.
So disappointing man! Its not scary at all lo! I prefer the earlier few episodes because its more scary and more mysterious.... Then i slept at 3am. Felt like i've wasted the 2 hours watching nothing.

Today i woke up at 9am+.... strange..... very very very strange.... by right i should wake up at 12+ but i actually woke up at 9am!!!!
Then i went for tuition and after that i slacked at aloy's house.... because he needs help in chinese....

Yep then i went home after dinner and used comp for awhile.
The 红心大奖 was rather special this year although their throphies are the same as last year's.
Chey!

希望能够永远永远永远在一起
直到天长地久
天荒地老
海枯石烂
直到世界末日。。。。

隐隐刺痛
真的好痛
但愿，时间能掩盖着一切
能够填补我的空虚
能够麻痹我的直觉。。。。

And yep, yesterday was the Farewell party.
Pretty well done.

Actually i was late, because i had to attend the BCLS course.... then they actually let me go off haha....

Then i went there to have the refreshments and bullied Fizzy for awhile.... Haha then i go for performance. Rather well done by the cadets.... Interesting though and rather touching with the videos done by thahira and the sec 3s and of course, miss ong's speech.

Haha.... i remembered me joining sjab after i quited gymnastics, shocking right?
I wa from gymnastics when i was in sec 1, but because there were to many trainings and so i quitted. Joined sjab because sheng hao told me to....haha.... i thought sjab only have 1 training per week, so its okay for me.
Sec 1 life passed just like that.....
There was this fancy drill by all UGs when i was sec 2 and the trainings started at the start of november. And at the same time, comp training. It was so hectic i almost wanted to quit comp training.

Yea but i didnt.... Maybe i skipped trainings for a few times because i really hated trainings that time.
Then on the orientation camp itself, i performed the first and last fancy drill for sjab. Eversince that year, we have combine fancy drill.
The fancy drill i did was quite well done. Really.
Competition was a success, we emerged as zone champions and proceed on to National comp and we got champions in first aid short case. Cool right?

Then we went to Advance Course.... Haha.... My first time being a duty NCO/ Course IC was given to the cadets there. In the end i was nominated as the best cadet nominee. But i screwed up the interview la because my hair was too long and did not answer all the questions correctly.

Then my first time planning an event was during sec 2, end of sec 2.... As the recruiment chairperson.... haha not very well done, but the recruits were not bad. As in the number of recruits.

Then there comes all the events.... Welcome party, farewell party and CAMP.
Haha.... camp was the scariest.... lots of proposals and things need to be done. Stress. On the camp itself, i know alot of things screwed up as can be seen in the debrief. The first time i never sleep well during the camp. I only slept like.... less than 7 hours for 4 days. Tiring. But was memorable. If i can organise a camp again, i will. I shouted till i have sore throat =.=

Then NDP, haha not very well done too.... But i know we tried our best.

Then was the outing.... quite fun actually, everything went smoothly.

Come to think of all this, it can be memorable and at the same time quite sad because we are leaving now. I remember how i hated sjab and wanted to quit. But i never. I never regretted not doing so haha....

And yep.... sjab is really a lesson learnt in my life. I really learnt alot. I wont forget sjab.

真的。
刚才所发生的事，让我觉得我这四年里所学的一切
都是废的！
什么全国第二名!
什么 Level 4 leader!
什么 Cadet Leader!
什么 Best Cadet Nominee!
有用吗?
我知道应该做什么，可是我却等着被使唤，被吩咐,被差遣！
我等什么？！
难道什么事都要依靠别人吗？！自己不能更有主见吗？！
废人一个！
我想哭，那时候，眼泪已经到眼角了
突然，我觉得该哭的不是现在的我
而是那个失去信心后的我....

HAH!
Today i ran my 2.4km again =.=
Sian i thought i will improve but i dropped from 11.31mins to 11.46 mins =.=
I thought i will start to walk at the 2nd round but i only start to walk near the 3rd round!
Wah seh i was motivated by myself =.=
Haha! Because i wanted to beat Aizal.... dont know why.... maybe i am just 1 metre away from him and i just cant seem to get any closer except for the part when he starts to walk =.=

Right.... And today's e maths focus was cancelled!
Yep! Was rather surprised because i thought she might have come up with some more ideas to shoot me =.=

Ya if you know who i am referring to....
Then the lessons was as boring as usual....
The weird thing is that i dont feel any cramp on my calf. Everytime after vigorous activity, my leg will cramp

Ya and after lesson, i'm supposed to meet Mr Wee but he was not in
Then i stayed in school for awhile to do homework
Then Michael and Wen Kang, as usual talked crap. And bullied Chin Pang which was unusual haha.

Then i went home.
Wondering why the weather is becoming so bad
Rain and there comes the sun =.=

我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天一直到今天
一直到永远我相信是我最爱你

那些过往只好放在心上

Tagged by Mandy.Wah i am really bored to do this.

Write the names of 21 friends you can think of & answer the questions. After doing this,tag your friends to do the same.

1. 王-奇
2. Aloysius
3. Zi Yang
4. Sheng Hao
5. Feng Shan
6. Tiffany
7. Patricia
8. Zhi Xian
9. Zheng Hui
10. Fizzy
11. Zubaidah
12. Aishah
13. Jason
14. Yi Shen
15. Chong You
16. Madeline
17. Yong Liang
18. Bin Koon
19. Joshua
20. Sei Yi
21. Swee Teng

1. How did you meet 7? (Patricia)
SJAB.

2. What would you do if you and 15 had never met? (Chong You)
I would not have know that his girlfriend is Madeline.

3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated? (王-奇 and Sei Yi)
Impossible.

4. Have you ever seen 17 cry? (Yong Liang)
No. But i saw him sweat before.

5. Would 4 and 16 make a good couple? (Sheng Hao and Madeline)
Perhaps.

6. Do you think 11 is attractive? (Zubaidah)
Depends.

7. What's 2's favourite colour? (Aloysius)
Navy Blue.

8. When was the last time you talked to 9? (Zheng Hui)
2 days ago.

9. What language does 8 speak? (Zhi Xian)
English, chinese.

10. Who is 13 going out with? (Jason)
Zi Yang.

11. What grade is 16 in? (Madeline)
Sec 3.

12. Would you ever date 17? (Yong Liang)
No.

13. Where does 18 live? (Bin Koon)
Yet to know.

14. What is the best thing about 4? (Sheng Hao)
He taught me layup =.=

15. What would you like to tell 10 right now? (Fizzy)
Tummy.

16. What is the best thing about 20? (Sei Yi)
Loyal.

17. Have you ever kissed 2? (Aloysius)
Of course not.

18. What's the best memory you have of 5? (Feng Shan)
She supports me regarding SJAB all the time.

19. When's the next time you're going to see 4? (Sheng Hao)
Monday ba.

20. How is 7 different from 6? ( Patricia and Tiffany)
Different age.

21. Is 2 pretty? (Aloysius)
No.

22. What was your first impression of 15? (Chong You)
Quiet.

23. How did you meet 3? (Zi Yang)
Last year when i first entered 3/7.

24. Is 15 your best friend? (Chong You)
I dont really know him that well.

25. Do you hate 12? (Aishah)
Nope.

26. Have you seen 18 in the last month? (Bin Koon)
Ya.

27. When was the last time you saw 16? (Madeline)
Hours ago.

28. When's the next time you'll see 10? (Fizzy)
Not sure.

29. Are you close to 11? (Zubaidah)
Not really.

30. Have you been to movies with 4? (Sheng hao)
Duh.

31. Have you gotten into trouble with 8? (Zhi Xian)
No.

32. Would you give 19 a hug? (Joshua)
If i ever get into the main team and win this year's Sinma.

33. When have you lied to 3? (Zi Yang)
Few weeks ago.

34. Is 11 good at socialising? (Zubaidah)
Perhaps.

35. Do you know a secret about 8? (Zhi Xian)
Nope.

36. Describe the relationship between 12 & 18. (Aishah and Bin Koon)
No relationship at all.

37. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9? (Zheng Hui)
He never beat me up.

38. What's the worst thing about 6? (Tiffany)
Unpredictable.

39. Have you ever had a crush on 12? (Aishah)
No.

41. How long have you known 2? (Aloysius)
5 years.

42. Does 11 have a bf/gf? (Zubaidah)
Should have ba.

43. Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face? (王-奇)
I will never do that.

44. Has 21 met your mother? (Swee Teng)
Nope.

44. How did you meet 11(Zubaidah)
Last year. We were in the same class.

45. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3? (Zi Yang)
Ya.

46. Do you live close to 7? (Patricia)
Nope.

47. What is 8's favourite food? (Zhi Xian)
Not sure.

48. What kind of car does 1 have? (王-奇)
No car ba.
49. Have you travelled anywhere with 9? (Zheng Hui)
Nope.

50. If you gave 14 $100 , what will 14 spend it on ? (Yi Shen)
Not sure.

Today's training was rather shiok.
Firstly i arrived abit late luckily they havent start their training.
So the nursings had their BCLS test where the ambulance stayed in the training room to train first aid case.
The first 2 case my team didnt get to do, we were crowds and casualties.
Really learned alot but cant remember all. I have to spot a mistake to remember everything.
Oh ya. They told us to use our 5 senses to identify injuries.
Because in 1982, there was this case held in an old building. Then the cadets have to climb in the room and it was pitch dark inside. Cool right?!
Wonder what will it be like if the RSS AA'08 were to do this case. COOL!
Then the team have to touch the injury, smell the injury and hear for the injury....
Then it was my turn to do case. I thought today will be case-free. =.=
Then my casualty was this guy with open fracture on the right upper thigh.
I dont know if RSS know about this la. Protruding foreign object and open fracture has different treatments.
Protruding foreign object will have to stack padding on the side of the object then bandage it.
Open fracture will have to immobilise the top and bottom joint and the figure of eight and ankle.
But then today's injury was open fracture on the thigh then i apply the padding treatment =.=
Nevermind. I heard people say i wear glove very fast. Compliment ba =)
Wah now got 13 ambulance cadets. Need to get into main team hard sia.... Really need to be the outstanding one =.= I hope i am one of them....
To think i didnt eat anything from the time i woke up today till 8+ =.= my legs was like shivering man =.=
Then i wanted to go causeway's mac to eat but it was full then i went to civic's mac.... wah fate sia.... really is fate.
Haha.... Then i ate there but it was freaking empty. Lonely =.=

我想我是太过依赖

Today was quite a fun day.

Went to watch Sniper with aloy. The movie damn shiok sia!
LOL! Okay the main characters are OJ (Edison Chen), hartman ( Richie Jen) , shane and ching (Huang Xiao Ming).
Hartman was the best shooter in the whole team and of course he is the team leader.
One day, hartman found out that OJ was a capable shooter. He know that OJ has got potential.
Because he got the confidence that all snipers should have.
And so they started their training.

Then everything was smoothly sailing until ching was released from prison.
Ching was a good friend and disciple of hartman. Ching can shoot from a distance of 500m whereas hartman can only shoot from distance of 400m with super strong wind.
But 4 years ago, they were on a mission to rescue 20 hostages from 3 robbers. Ching acted on his own and killed the son of the owner of the bank.
He claimed that he saw the robber pulling the ring of the grenade but hartman said no. Shane saw nothing as he was in charge to look out for the surroundings.
And so, Ching was angry....very angry.
His girlfriend fell from building while looking a their photos as the wind blew the photo away.

Ching was devasted. He started to grow crazy.
He helped Tao, one of the robber involved 4 years ago, in his escape.
But in the end.... ching, tao, hartman, shane and all the team members died.
Because ching insisted the team to come in his "territory" where he can shoot best at. He thinks that he went to jail is all because his team mates did not helped him. Ching thinks that he failed to killed tao 4 years ago. And so he wanted to do it this time. The only survivor was OJ. He managed to kill ching because hartman hinted him taht the way he shoot will cause his hands to shake because he often hold his breath while shooting and this causes drawbacks. More over his gun was heavy.

Being competitive is every man's natural instinct. By OJ. True. Indeed.

After the movie then i went to buy that lebron james basketball which caused $50! WAH LAU! That sheng hao =.=
But we still bought it.... Sian.
Then i went home and did nothing =.=
Tomorrow maybe have BCLS. Die i havent read anything =.=

默默的等待

Alright! My 100th post!!!! Lol....nothing to be excited about =.=
So today we got mass run and it ended halfway because of the stupid weather.
You know it shouldnt rain so often at this month?
Just because people just burn and burn stuff causing this kind of bullshit.
Last year liao then all this @#%!#$^#$^$!@#&%%% stuff come
Rain rain rain....=.= And worse of all, its only drizzle and the lightning warning system will be activated =.= NO LIGHTNING OR THUNDER ALSO!

Chiu! Dont care la. Then i was doing duty under the hot sun and yea its not torturous at all man
Somehow it just feels good, yea....
HAH! The last and the best public duty ever man....
Then somehow when you see people gave up because they got stitches. Its rather pitiful la. Its only a stitch....ya i know it hurts la but its not worth giving up....
Yep! I piggy backed someone again today.... =.= but i looked rather stupid ba haha.... because the casualty's leg was straight haha! SHIOK AR! Train strength again! But dont know why.... I feel that i ran 2.4km when i reach home haha....

其实我已经满足了
我不奢望什么
毕竟你曾经被伤害过
我了解
因为过来人的心态，没人能理解
一切尽在不言中
末日的夕阳
秋天的朝阳
我相信一定很美

后知后觉。。。。

I am really really sorry if i have offended you.
Sorry.... I really didnt want this to happen. Or i should say i didnt know this would eve happened.
But i cant give up too. I hope you can get over it soon. Sorry.

有时候
觉得自己好像在虚度时光
也许是我太懒惰了吧
往往都被 “懒惰” 这两的字 侵略
使我一事无成
我想，是时候了。
一生就只有这一次，我不能再继续下去了。
烂船也有三斤铁， 我将好好利用这三斤铁。
我不能在这样下去了，不能浪费我这一生
明天，就从明天开始，要努力！
浪子回头金不换！

....
Just recovered from this crazy fever which had to strike me today =.=
Morning i woke up at 7am then went toilet then found out that i am super thirsty and i am very cold =.=
Then went back to sleep and never woke up....
HAHA! Actually got wake up just that i am too weak to move....
Then i didnt get to go for sports carnival nor training nor meeting....
Then i start to recover le.... after much chatting =)
But still didnt eat much....
But i 听话 then go drink alot and tried to eat porridge (not trying to act cute here ).
Haha thanks for your concern if not i might still be lying on bed now like a dead pig =.=
Heard from people that today's training was not much different compared to last week.
But they did footdrills for around 10mins and because the weather was too hot then they have to stop. LOL it rhymes =.=
Then they did cases and a new sir came today to train them.
Oh ya i think i got fever because thursday i ran 2.4 then didnt drank much water.
Yesterday ran in the morning then ran in the afternoon just to get a dictionary then went for pft and after all this i went for pt in SJAB =.=
Its like a sweating day for me =.=
Then i didnt drank much so i got fever lo =.=
谢谢你一直在身后支持我
很感激你
原来这个选择是对的

Alright.... I have been sleeping at around 12+ this few days =.=
I dont know why but i just cant sleep before 12.... so i will lie on the bed....toss and turn then will only sleep after 12....=.=
So this few days are like a repeat of last week. Lessons lessons lessons then focus focus focus then go home....
So boring =.=
But i realise this week's homework is slightly lesser than last week's. I was working like a bull last week but still cant finish my work. But at least this week i still can push my homework to the next day when i reach school.
I just dont have enough sleep and i am falling asleep at all the theory lessons. Well today is april's fool but i never got tricked. Achievement =)
Haha.... Exactly 2 months from now will be my chinese O level paper. I really want to score an A1. I cannot afford to lose any marks here man....
Then few more months later will be my prelim =.= then the rest of the o level paper.... then.... results.... then either poly or jc.... I dont know whether i should go poly or jc man....
If i go jc, i might have a more promising future compared to poly. But i will continue this hectic life for 2 more years.
As for now.... i got my exams and my competition to concentrate on. I know i am still not as strong as those competitors out there but i really hope i can get a position there. At least let me contribute something to the corp for the last time.
Really bored now.... Maybe i'll go and sleep haha....
This aloy.... zzzzzzz told you to let me settle. You dont want. Scared of what. They are in the wrong. NOT YOU. I dont mind giving them a punch or something. zzzzz
你知道吗
你浅浅的微笑
深似海的眼光
都能掀起我
滔天的巨浪