Me

Wooo....
Today went for Sinma competition.
Training was rather productive. But standards were rather high. Whatever i did seems to be wrong. There's always something to be picked at. But at least i learnt from it.
Then today i was the commander leading people from maris stella and hai xing.
I actually had to enter the case then get the case slip and gather. And get the number 4 to stop this event. Something like sports event. Then i treated this heat exhaustion casualty. I wasnt able to identify because i didnt read the case properly. I thought it was a car racing in the night. So heat exhaustion didnt ran pass my mind at all.

Then the casualty hinted me alot. Even the officer was mocking at me =.= Then i realise.
But then i did ask for the situation for each casualty but the previous case's commander didnt leh =.= Then my team members didnt communicate. Because we are not bonded yet ba. Alot of things are different from riverside de standard. Sian. Like starting from scratch when i was in sec 1. Just like luo zhi xiang who want to learn 蓝蝶划云游身步. He has to forget everything he was taught.

After that i went for meeting. Wah Jacklynn mdm was there. I think is because she has been assigned to riverside le ba. So she has to know everything. Its funny with her around because she is straightforward. Thats why straightforward people are cute haha. Like the Joshua sir today also. Might be scary, be funny.

Tomorrow i have to go library pia homework liao. I still havent do chinese recordings. Wah schedule packed la!!!! Dont know aloy still need me teach him chinese or not =.= I wonder who is that guy/girl who got 74 for overall chinese whereas i got 72. =.= Come on if you are that person please tell me who you are zzzzzzzzzzz.

慢慢的这份爱已经变成依赖

Finally i can enter blogger. =.= Alright. Lets start with something rather disappointing today. I really gave you the last chance. But you betrayed my trust. So, dont blame me if i keep it to myself and not you. I once warned you not to do it. BUT YOU STILL DO IT IN MY FACE. Whats that suppose to mean? You are really one hopeless guy. I can no longer trust you anymore. If you think by doing that is being cool or funny. I TELL YOU ITS NOT! When i dont do it, you blame me for it. Whereas when i do it, you will never keep that mouth of yours shut. NEVER. This is at least the 3rd time i've being betrayed by you. When you are feeling low or need company, i am always by your side and now i get this shit back! 我的好心，对你来说，简直是理所当然。

Disappointed....really. If you know who you are, you better stop doing it. No....i dont think you will ever change. I thought you will, but you never did.... utterly disappointed in you. The more i think of it, the more pissed i am. 为了自己的利益，不择手段。

You know i saw this phrase from Yishen's blog. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人. 我下次会更小心的，我保证我不会再相信你了。太失望了。。。。

人心难测
我最痛恨出卖我的人
而那个人竟然是你

Alright, next up. Today's oral =.= Everything was fine till conversation. The topic was youth olympic. I knew what to say but i just cannot translate everything to chinese. I went er.... er.... But Mr Du said i managed to get the points, just that i have to answer it in simpler words. Alright, kinda weird, i didnt feel really tense up during the oral. When i was outside sitting and preparing for it, i felt nothing. Perhaps i am used to it. I just realise i hate theory lessons because i can fall asleep. I rather teacher give us tonnes of worksheet to do to keep me occupy. Because, time seems to fly very quickly when we have work to do. =)

我还是办不到
或者该说，
我不知道该怎么做 我不想历史再重演

First of all.... CONGRATULATIONS AC , NC AND NA FOR GETTING CHAMPION IN THE ZONE 6 INTER-COPRS FIRST AID AND HOME NURSING COMPETITION!!!!
Haha all your hardwork have paid off =)
Now its back to 3 champions again. Hope this will continue. Haha....
Good luck for your national competition too =)
Now its my turn to get a position in Sinma comp =.=

The chief judge yesterday was from Maris Stella.... Even he himself was praising how well his school's SJAB was. Now i am competing with his disciples....challenging. But i never give up.

Okay.... actually i got nothing to talk about already. Just that i finished all the homework today except for the chinese recordings =.= But nevermind i have the next few days to do it if Mr Du doesnt want them tomorrow.

The vocab list i didnt get to finish them. Lol. I only finish half of each.

School reopening tomorrow~ and focus will start....haiz....
我还是有点不好受。。。。

And YEP! Tomorrow will be the actual day of comp!
Actually i cant really help much.... Just giving you guys moral support and breakfast if you all want. But 目前为止 only NA dare to ask stuff from me =.=
Today morning went to watch Street Fighter. It sucks. Really.
You hear the name Street Fighter you would expect something like cyclop's laser eye, ken's fire punch or anything that has cool effects. But no~ the whole movie was about this chun li's life from young till the day he want to save his dad from this guy called Byson. I believe the rating can get as bad as Dragonball.
After that i went back to school to help out.
At the same time also crapped awhile la haha.
Then i went to Aloy's house to use his comp because i am lazy to go home and change then go for tuition. So i rather slack there.
Crapped for awhile then went for tuition.
And yea.... this was my day. I hope i can really help them tomorrow.
真的好想念。。。。
你知道吗。。。。
好想听见你的笑声。。。。

So today was another boring day.
But i was somehow brightened up. Haha....
当我看着自己，我觉得自己缺了什么 当我走在街上，步伐有点不对 当我在吃饭时，我觉得味道有点不对 直到遇见你 当我看着自己，我看见信心 当我走在街上，我不觉得孤单 但我在吃饭时，我知道你会希望我每餐都吃得好 因为你
cool eh? I wrote one! REALLY!
Actually i dont know what to post.
And tomorrow i might go out to watch movie. I wanna watch coming soon but they want to watch street fighter =.=
Alright. I wont have any mood to do anything on tomorrow =.= something will be missing tomorrow.
Nevermind....everything will be back to normal on saturday.
By the way, COMPETITION TEAMS GOOD LUCK! LETS HAVE 3 CHAMPIONS THIS YEAR!!!!
我会很想念。。。。
想念是无法拒绝只求一醉的浓酒

For your information, straightforward people are cute.
Okay random.
Nevermind, so i watched this drama on the net la i find it rather ridiculous and pissed me off.
The main characters are called juliet, anthony and jack.
Okay so i shall start the story.
Jack and juliet was from 2 different countries but fate pulled them together by letting them meet each other in an expedition.
So jack fell in love with her at first sight. Bullshit eh?
Then jack was blinded by love. Juliet was the sort of girl who likes any guy that catches her eyes.
But jack didnt know.
Then months later, jack started a business. WAOH BULLCRAP.
But at the same time juliet fell in love with anthony. 2 timed.
Jack knew nuts.
Then juliet asked for a break and jack thought that it was for his own good. He thought juliet wanted to break with him because she want him to concentrate on his work.
Then months later, juliet wanted to patch because anthony ditched him?
Then jack knew nothing.
Then he patched.
But later on jack knew everything. He could not do anything. He was hurt deeply. =.=
But now jack led a simple life.
BULLSHIT RIGHT?! RUBBISH DRAMA. WASTED MY TIME WATCHING!
Alright.... enough of rubbish.
So today i went for lessons as usual but i find it useless la because we are not learning anything other than the a maths la.
Then i went home then at night went to play basketball.
Wah 2 courts were occupied by soccer then 1 court were occupied by china people playing =.=
Then we waited for 1 hour plus then get to play =.=
But now i am feeling hungry =.=

I want to watch " Coming Soon " after hearing what ziyang and jason said. Jason said that he will not watch anymore horror movie anymore this year and ziyang said that jason is even afraid of using computer alone.
Exciting eh? But no one wants to watch with me!
Either scared or....VERY SCARED. =.=
ziyang said that i will run off first because he said i am afraid of blood. 2nd part is quite true but the first part if total rubbish. I wont run off =.= who would waste their $6 like that?
But it really excites me when i heard them describing what the movie is like.
And ya. Today's lesson was....bored. Or i should say its not productive at all?
We can learn that in our normal lessons and we can even do that chinese paper 1 at home. Total waste of time i should say.
Sometimes when you listen to songs, you tend to understand what it is trying to convey.
I heard this line " 有种拥有，叫做放手 " if you dont know, i found this in the theme song of 一切完美.
To understand this, it means.... i dont know how to explain in english =.=
Okay la....when you want to possess something, its obvious that you have to have it meaning, you must have something to call it as possess. But in that phrase, giving up is also another form of possession.
Quite true.
Here's one more.
被遗憾关在房间....
Figure it out yourself the true meaning behind it.

Haha.... Today went out with Sheng Hao and Aloy.
Its like 3 months ever since we went out together.
Alright so today we wanted to meet at " old place " at 2pm to set off to Queensway Shopping centre.
Then as expected.... This aloy was late AGAIN.
I was freaking fed up! He is always like that man! Always tell me to plan the time then when i plan already he will confirm give last minute changes!
Then i wah FED UP! Then i waited at " old place " oh ya its at the taxi stand nearer to metro.
Then he say he coming down from popular with sheng hao so i said i go breadtalk then sheng hao tell me go control station meet then when i go there, he called me and asked me where i was! WAH LAU EH! Then when he saw me, he acted like nothing happened! =.=
I ranted for like dont know how long then we sat at the bus then go to queensway shooping centre.
This bus....tsk tsk tsk....so long still havent reach.... Then we were talking crap in the bus then when we reach harbourfront, we realised that we missed the stop =.=
Song bo....
Then we walk walk and took another bus back to queensway shopping centre =.=
Then we walk around to buy sheng hao's basketball shoe.... then i bought pants to play during basketball....
Then we ate there then walk around again.... then i realise it's just any normal shopping centre =.=
Haha then as we were about to go home, aloy suggested to go and walk at thsi loooooooooong bridge at a park. This sheng hao was too weak to walk because he claimed that he is afraid of heights =.= Then we went there and camwhore LOL
You can find one in my msn DP =) Haha.... I was holding an orange plastic bag by the way =.=
Then we went home and didnt talk much in the bus because it was too cramp and too stuffy =.= And i was too thirsty.
AND aloy COULD NOT interpret stuff at all! I GET PISSED OFF when i tell him stories about one of the documentary in " I should not be alive "
Its nice, do catch it but i forgot what time i starts.

Lol.... I think i am getting older.... as in very old =.=
My back now ache =.=
Today's training was very fruitful. I wanted to blog alot about it but i think i've forgot somethings there.
Alright, so i went for trianing this morning and found out they actually started NDP training already....wah
Then i changed to quarter u with belt and headed towards training room.
So we started with conscious choking training and they actually taught us how to control a fall when the choking casualty faints. Cool eh.
Then we tried unconscious choking and CPR.
Then we went for lunch.
Came back and learnt infant choking unconscious and conscious and infant CPR. And we also learnt the enw edition of recovery position.
So fun to leanrn infant choking unconscious and conscious and infant CPR. Its a totally new thing. But too bad we dont learn it in riverside. But if one day we want to learn maybe i can teach haha =)
Oh ya they have this machine to test your compression and ventilations in adult cpr. Cool eh. I kinda pass.
Oh ya i got this information that the ambulance team had not won for 10 years =.=
Shit.... what a way to demoralize us. But nevermind.... I WILL GET THE TROPHY BACK THIS YEAR if i get in the team la. =.= They say the cup is made of PURE gold =.= wah so rich man....
Next week i not going.... because got zone comp to attend.... oh yea~
到現在還是一個人吞噬著自己的能耐

What the....
Sports carnival was cancelled today T_T
My last year in Riverside and it was cancelled T_T
Maybe its Friday the 13th that causes this crap.
Whats worse is that the 1st core game i played lost. The score was 1-0 =.=
Wah wasted. But luckily we missed the peak hour where there will be the most number of casualties.
Haiz....didnt get to play dodgeball.
But we still won the dont know what award. I dont know why we got it because while i was at the first aid post, i notice my class was freaking quiet, no one cheered. Then we got this best cheering sort of award. And its apple =.= like last year.
Then after that i went back home and sleep.
Then went for tuition.
Wah teacher never come got relief teacher and Aloy kept talking non stop. From DOTA till handphones till IT show and blah blah.
Someone said this to me.
I was shocked
Give up the world for one person. Instead of one person for the world.
Sian.... to think i still have to go for training tomorrow.... I dont mind if those people standards are good but those people's standards are VERY good! It will be a total humiliation if i go there. Moreover i know no one there. Lonely =.=
.... Got to go ad sleep now.... Training till 6pm. Benjamin Soh. TRASH THEM!!!!


证明我决定没有错

I am VERY TIRED
Yesterday i stayed back after school and play basketball with Wen Kang and Michael =.= Ya expected la they kinda own the whole game but i got in some unexpected shots.
I asked them for comments and they gave me shit stuff =.=
But nevermind la at least i played well then sunday no need play =.=
And today i went to play with Sheng Hao in RP
I thought it might rain so i can skip it but it didnt T_T
So i went there.
This guy told me i could set off and when i reached there i found out that he was late and was late for more than 20mins =.=
But i was on phone with Aloy so ya....
Then we started playing then got this few China guys joined us.
And gone =.=
Then another 2 came. They are really fast! their movements were really swift and their teamwork is always there! they hardly miss a shot.
Then i accidentally insulted them.
I dont know what happened to me then i started talking nothing, like a baby language =.=
Wah siao liao lo! Luckily they didnt take it to their heart....phew
When the game ends, my cheeks cramped =.= heat exhaustion i guessed.
I sat down and rest then i started playing PSP. Wah my whole body was filled with sweat.
I could never find a spot that is dry. NO SPOT!
But it was fun. At least i made new friends and learnt new skills WOO!
I am so tired now *yawns*


是认定的选择

不是没勇气
而是勇气往往都遮盖了会带来的后果
让我看不清是对是错
原来还有更多
更多
在外等待着
将来并不明显。。。。
我根本没办法分辨
又有谁能呢？
只好选择安静的等待。。。。

Wah today so shuang.
Its been like weeks since i slept till afternoon liao haha....
But once i woke up i got nothing to do liao because no one is at home and the psp was taken away by my bro =.=
Then i woke up around 12pm+
On tv the saw rubbish show =.= So 1970s drama =.=
Off it then i went down to have breakfast
Wah the Yong Tau Foo today gave me very little sauce sia =.= then the whole noodle is so dry =.=
Then went back slack on my bed till hmmm 3pm+ because accidentally fell asleep liao =.=
Then on comp awhile then went to library to do homework =.= zzzzzzz
Dont know why nowadays if i dont go library do homework i cant concentrate....
Sian~


我也会不留一点痕迹

Today was the school's flag day and i didnt know it till Thursday or Wednesday. It was so sudden. But today i went to Sembawang to collect money. The tin was quite heavy or i should say its 1/4 full. Compared to SJAB flag day my standard dropped alot haha. But nevermind la theres more note inside. Today we were helping the Singapore Disability Sports Council. Correct right....?

Then while we were collecting donations the Dhiyven came lol. Keep talking in chinese trying to attract them to donate but too bad the donations all came to me....LOL.
Then i went for the briefing for Singapore-Malaysia Competition.
Siao one. Those pros from all around the nation came here and i actually sat with them. And guess what? I think Zone 6 representatives are the only ones who will be taking O level. The rest DONT HAVE TO TAKE! Means i already lose to them liao =.= But nevermind i will try to get in main 4 if cannot then main 5 lo T_T

Next week need to report at 10am because got BCLS Basic cardio....dont know what.
They told us our competition ground will be at Xin Ming Secondary. WO! The competition date is on 21st June. Then i have to stay in Royal Hotel the day before because they dont want anyone to be late. But the hotel fees i dont have to pay =) Then the night after the competition there will be a banquet and we have to present an item but i dont know what to present =.=

They say i am no longer from Zone 6....instead i am St. John Ambulance Singapore Headquarters. So cool man with such long name. Meaning if there is anything that clashes with the trainings i have to go for the trainings. Maybe cant be casualty for Zone comp liao T_T

The makring scheme is different from now.
First Aid Long Case - 150 marks
First Aid Short Case- 100 marks
Footdrill- 50 marks
Do you see TOC? No right? Because it might be in Long case. So even the nursings need to learn. And we need to learn roller bandage like what thumb bandage =.=

Then today was so boring. No one at home except me because all went to Malaysia for wedding banquet.


对不起。。。。 我没有勇气告诉你。。。。 只能等待勇气征服我的那一天。。。。

Today ....一言难尽
Even the weather....点头赞成
Felt....七上八下
Luck.... 烂透了
What to do.... 没有勇气

有错吗？
这跟你们有什么关系？
这是我的事！凭什么批评？！
Exams are over~ FINALLY MAN!
Didnt get to slack this pass 1 week and 3 days wooo~
But guess what!? After mental torture comes physical torture! I GOT SORE THROAT
A-G-A-I-N and a flu =.=
SHIT!

只有用颓废来抗争。。。。

Hmmmm.... bored....=.=
Tomorrow is physics =.=
Alright....Gonna study =.=